2020 Tested My Resilience

I feel overwhelmed with the amount of events that happened over the course of 2018 to 2020. Specifically with how resilient I feel after these events. I graduated from college after these events. I graduated from college after 5 years running around like a headless chicken asking my body to stop and trust the process. I got an intimidating job that not only gave me a large sense of confidence. But made me view my neighborhood and community in a different life. And finally got a job in an organization that TRULY invests in their participants and they’re employees. Within this time frame, I moved out of my family’s home and had to learn what living truly means to me. I was in charge of my livelihood, meaning if I messed it up. I can’t blame no one else. When I sit down with myself and rerun my early 20s, I ask “How did you do it?” “Weren’t you scared?” 

HELL YEAH! I was terrified, and I barely sleep sometimes.

This all means taking care of myself and the community I care about. With COVID-19, reminding myself and others to wear masks and truly practicing public health guidelines that could keep your family member, sister, father, cousin and that weird Uncle alive. And if all that’s being asked of me means wearing a mask and carrying hand sanitizers everywhere. I don’t understand the heartache. But that’s a blog for another day. It means not needing to start fights or drama because I am a working adult. Mess can get you to lose your job and then some. And one important thing is to really try to live to the best of my abilities. I am a Black woman in the US, no one wants or cares if I do. 

It truly blows my mind at what I was able to do. I was able to stand up for myself, trust my decisions and believe that I was capable. And even when I fail, or my resilience has tumbled. I want to be able to say I tried my best and that’s what matters. 

How do you cope with many challenges 2020 has presented to you? 

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